Others certainly have it worse – mainly Kim – but still, Thailand has really been kicking my ass lately. Which is why you haven’t heard from me as much as you might like.
This week alone, I’ve:
-woken up to a trail of spider/mosquito bites from my left shoulder blade to my neck to my right bicep. Plus, you know, a few detours on my thigh/ass. And my lip, which is a first.
- burned my leg on the exhaust pipe of the motorbike. It doesn’t’ seem too bad, but it just happened Wednesday. It certainly looks gross. I’ll let you know how it goes.
- been called fat a dozen or so times, sometimes in front of a large group. One of these times it was pointed out that I USED to be beautiful, but I’m not anymore. Then that person insisted that I tell them my current weight in pounds so we could convert it into kilograms so he could tell me how overweight I really am. (side note – upon last visit to a scale, I’m exactly the same as I was when I left NYC.)
- also been ridiculed for my lack of Thai fluency, and otherwise made fun of in a language I don’t understand. Also in front of a large group.
- ended up on a shitty short-distance fan bus that you’re never ever supposed to take, especially on long-distance trips. Twice. Four hours each way.
- spent 14 hours on a field trip from hell that included endless torture from a bitchy teacher, a karoke machine and mic that was managed by students and a flat tire on a full bus only 40 kilometers from home.
I mean, don’t get me wrong. I still love Thailand, and all that. I just wanted to share another side of the seemingly flawless existence I have right now. Along with getting retarded on the weekends, I’m cultivating my abilities for patience, kindness, understanding and acceptance. But it certainly isn’t easy.
I’m planning to check into the Buddhist Center for meditation soon. Maybe that will help me a bit.
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